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A visual experiment inspired by semi-forsed migration and nostalgia 

performed as an exhibition in Kai Residency, Peru, 2025 

by Xena Poeshuk

Special thanks to Carlos Garavito for his vision and the space of the Residency welcoming creativity 









Todo lo q extrañas ya no existe 

* — all you are missing no longer exist

Terms: 

A map — a simplification of the landscape. A cartographer is reproducing simplified version of reality, cleansing the «noise» and showing what seems relevant; that reproduction will be limited by the method; but, even considering the method, a map is always one’s interpretation. 

A landscape — a uniform unit of the environment; a landscape is a complex system that include all living and non-living beings within one unified space; all parts of it exist in constant exchange and connection. A landscape — the smallest part of biosphere. A landscape — the one you miss when you far from home.

Biosphere — a sphere that consists of everything alive and its habitats. Biosphere is a layer covering most of the planet; this imaginary sphere where all ecosystems are interconnected by transition of energy and matter. In a way, Biosphere unites you with any place on the planet, like your birth town.


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Migration — movement in space forced by certain factors. There is constant migration in natural systems; part of interconnectedness of biosphere based on the process of migration of: energy, matter, species. Arctic tern, a Nordic seabird, migrates from Arctic to Antarctic and back during a year. Migration is an energetically difficult process.

Invasive species — species that don’t belong to the local environment; they were brought there by chance; invasive species have to face a complicated process of adaptation.

Adaptation — a process that migrating species have to go through; the process of getting used to new environment; adaptation can take significant time depends on each species.

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Materials and methods:

Here we have an experiment, where you can observe the scientist that is studying surrounding ecosystem by using a familiar language — a map. But, there is no traditional scientific method, there are only scientific intuition and nostalgia. This time the scientist become an object of study: except of species and ecosystem, here we are inviting you to study an immigrant and its asylum. The only scientific instrument is being used is transparent paper, a filter to perceive and capture reality in a familiar way for the scientist. There are no traditional scientific methods being used, a scientist is no longer the subject that study the object; here we have another kind of object — which is the result of existing in scientific environment, the result of scientific way of thinking — myself. During these years in the science I have learned to observe, notice, analyse, classify. Therefore, in a parallel with adapting to scientific methodology, I grew a scientific intuition. And here is the experiment: if we will take the scientific method from the scientist, there will be intuition left; if we will take the motherland from the immigrant, there will be nostalgia. Here you can see — the invasive species, not typical for the local ecosystem, and its way of perceiving the world through that transparent paper, which was created before, in the native ecosystem. In that experiment we call it «a phantom map of the motherland». 


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An exhibition opening happened at March 2025 in Kai Art Residency in Arin, Sacred Valley, Peru. Here is some pictures from the opening

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Thank to Diego Arregui for that pictures


The road


Is it weird

To feel this loudness

Of confusion

Is it depressing

To stop knowing

your destination

Is it comforting

To push your body

In space

Faster

Then your understandingof discomfort

Is my next stop —

A bed, 

A heavy cover

And little gentle

Seeds of kindness


2022


Below you can find a video essay that was screened in the exhibition in Kai Residency. This video consists of visual experiments aiming to create a new, non-scientific way to make maps, following the idea of nostalgia, adaptation, intuition more then methodology. 

The video of visual experiments is accompanied by poems read by me in Russian and English, the poems i wrote while living as an imigrant in South America (Colombia, Bolivia, Peru, Brazil, Uruguay). It contain the feeling i had to face when the war has started and I had to adapt to new country, language, new political reality, new jobs and form of living.

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Here you can find some poetry that was printed in zines and performed in the video essay during the exhibition:


Journey with no end. Notes in the time of wars


If you cover yourself

With a sleeping bag, 

it’s a little bit

Easier, 

a little bit

More Understandable

The sleeping bag —  is a symbol 

of comfort of struggles, 

Accompanied by knowledge about yourself: 

It will be hard, 

but you ll know exactly — how much, 

There might be a cold mountain night in a tent

Or — wooden floor in a village

Might be an expedition with always expired food

Or some days in a train It will be hard, but so clear

The hardness will be aligned with the beauty

Might be even soul-healing

For all of that one can suffer for sure

But only, how long should one suffer? 

If a rebelous, funny, scary idea appears: 

Is there are real necessity to suffer? 

What if you don’t have to suffer? 

Is there life with no suffer? 

And how to be now

if so?


2022

Путь без конца. Записки во время войн


Если укутаться спальником то 

Немного легче, немного

Понятнее

Спальник — символ комфорта лишений

Сопровожденного знанием о себе самом:

будет непросто, но точно известно, насколько

Будут морозные ночи в палатке в горах

Или в деревне на сосновом полу

Экспедиции с их вечной просрочкой

Или поезд в течение долгих суток

Будет сложно, но однозначно

Сложность сопроводится романтикой

Будет красиво или душевно тепло

Ради такого можно и потерпеть

Но только — сколько терпеть?

Если однажды в голове поселится мысль, крамольная, смешная, страшная:

А точно нужно терпеть?

А если терпеть не нужно?

Есть ли без этого жизнь?

И как теперь жить, если есть?


2022

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Time


I perceive time through events

Like a true paleogeogapher

Collecting evidences of the past —

A marine shell in the sediments

A trace of oak leaf on the rocks in cold Arctic

Absence of traces of sea level above 15 m

Ticket Saint-Petersburg — Armenia

A vintage sport pents from Belgrade flea market

Lack of data about the flight Bogota — St Petersburg

I perceive time through states

States of the environment in Little Ice Age

State of lostness in Montenegro

after I quit scientific institute

after I lost my identity of polar researcher

 

But now, while the war

The time as a concept has gone

The past will no longer define The Now

Now is no longer applicable

To The Past

Connections between them doesn’t make sense

Future is no longer exist

Future has been taken from us

Now I am free from scientific view on time

Time has narrowed down to «the now»


2022

Время


Я воспринимаю время через события

Как настоящий палеогеограф 

Собираю свидетельства изменений прошлого — 

Морская ракушка в отложениях

Отпечаток листа дуба на горных породах в холодной Арктике

Отсутсвие признаков моря на высоте 15 метров

Билет СПб-Армения 

Болоневые штаны с барахолки Белграда

Отсутствие данных о чек ине билета Богота-СПб

Я воспринимаю время через состояния

Состояния природной среды в малый ледниковый период

Состояние потерянности в Черногории 

Когда я уволилась из Научного института 

Когда потеряла свою арктическую идентичность 


Но теперь, когда война, время ушло

Как концепт

Прошлое больше не определит настоящее

Настоящее не применить к прошлому

Связи между ними не имеют смысла

Будущего нет

Будущее у нас забрали 

Теперь я свободна от научного взгляда на время

Время сузилось до сейчас


2022

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Choice of the memory 


A new beginning

Shines bright above the sea

Breaking through

The grey sky

With the light

Of hope

That once

Everything become

A bit more simple

A bit more clear

Maybe

More boring

But there will be light

As a constant part

Of that boring days

And I’ll be the light

I will radiate it around

the world

And then I ll forget

My stories

But not just because

The memory is so weak, 

But because the level

Of pain and struggles

Will seem -

A fairytale — 

A fiction — 

A dream

And so

I

Will start

To forget



2024

Выбор памяти 


Новое начало 

Горит над морем

Пробивает

Серое небо

Светом надежды

Что однажды

Все станет

Немного легче

Немного понятнее

Возможно

Скучнее

Но свет будет

Постоянной 

Частью

Тех скучных 

Дней

И я буду свет

Я буду фонить во все стороны

Света

Забуду свои истории

Но не потому

Что

Память слаба

Потому что уровень

Боли и тягот 

Будет казаться

Сказкой

Вымыслом

Сном

И

Я

Начну

Забывать


2024

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